i tink im really silly
at this point of time, im still looking at my hp, hoping to receive some sms in return

life is just all about protecting and gaining your best interests for yourself isnt it.
after so many days of sending smses, i finally realised
when hey its someone's birthday!
when omg.we want to watch movie
when i want balloons
people would all flock to you, hoping to give a piece of their mind and then waiting for someone to volunteer to perform it because I am simply so busy, you know
but.
when someone needs help,
poof




everyone's gone
and you're left alone, wondering what just happened

thats how people are.
everyone scrambles to get the best for themselves,
no one in sanity would do something which just does not help themselves a teeny wit
they only want to dig,
dig for the best till theres like nothing left
then walk away

ironically tt doesnt seem to be how life works
complicating isnt it.
haha

for the past few days i tried to convince myself how torturous it must be to go for a co concert
my conclusion is : OMG. very torturous indeed
the performers are just zhamming on their instruments and the conductor forever looks as though he is so winced in pain. must have been so affected by how loud the sound is
and the worst thing is,
i cant even sleep because it is simply so noisy!
wtf
and theres like chem lecture test the next morning!
which is so so so so so so impt since it adds 1 mark to my total score at the end of the year if i mug HARD enough to get full marks!
O WOW.
and listening and watching chaos costs me like 15 BUCKS!!!
IM TRYING TO SAVE UP, GOD DAMN YOU
you know how much 15 bucks can do in stark contrast to hurting my ears?
i can go to the toilet like 150 times with it!
oooooooh
sounds so much more exciting than going for a co concert
its not like noise is not noise when peiqi's performing?
everything is just the same
why waste money
why waste time
HAHA
so what if i help peiqi out cox shes so desperate over her ticketing crap and spend that 15 bucks worth so much to me?
i get nothing but maybe some earblock

but i really wonder who really did stop to think,
what does it benefit me,
watching this stupid movie which doesnt interest me much but cost like 9.50(toilet 95 times)
having to buy the dumb tickets beforehand when time is so so so precious to me and i could have gotten like A for physics if i used the time to study
and having to rush like mad and still get grumbled at for being late when i didnt even want to appear in the first place
how hard it was to be treated as some kind of singtel info center
hey what time is the movie?
hey what is it?
hey we need to buy present!
hey i want to eat, eat with me
spending all my darling 300 free smses on trying to coordinate such stuff when all the effort spent doesnt really equate to something that benefits me
i guess i must be insane then
going to buy this present buy that present buy balloon buy flowers buy sweets
when im so busy with my own stuff
and i dont even get some kind of recognition for something
not being calculative here,
just wonder whats on your minds when i had to go begging around for money and get rolling eyes when i put in so much time and effort

and now......
ta ta ta ta!
the best time for me to see if my efforts paid off
hmmmm
let me recall
"hey.please come for my chengsan concert on the 29 july sun 5pm at SCH.its 15 bucks.please help me.can see that im very desperate here.please come!!"
and.....................for the long awaited replies!!!!


poof.
everyone's gone.

argh.nevermind.
its a full house afterall.lol.