haha so long since i blogged
and normally i dont!
unless i have something to say.

well, just because i kept quiet doesnt equate to me agreeing with what you said,
it just means that there is no point in continuing the conversation which will end up in conflict anyway.

i dont think its nice to simply shoot your mouth off and tell someone to go find something to be committed to.
afterall, you cant jump to a conclusion that im void of committment, just a slacker wasting my time away just by listening to me talk about my cca or counting the number of times i ponned cca.
just because i dont show it doesnt mean i dont have it.
simply said, the fact that i dont constantly remind you all that i have an external cca and i do quite a lot of stuff there before doesnt mean i dont have an external cca
the fact that i dont flaunt my list of to-dos doesnt mean that i have nothing to do
the fact that i dont allow my work and my emotions to seep into curriculum time doesnt mean i dont have them

i admit the fact that im a horrible slacker in tkd and i regret being that, without changing the status quo by changing cca or pulling my socks
okay i shall not sound like the typical slacker that blames everyone but herself that shes a horrible slacker.
but it is never easy to start out as a second intaker, and i think the most screwed up part of my college life in terms of achievements would be my cca in hc.
this is especially so when nothing much was done comparable to orientation this yr, to help us fit into a cca, resulting in me joining in a rat race to finding a cca.
well, times in cca with friends do feel nice and its somewhat like a bonding session everytime, the lack of achievement still screws me up sometimes.
after all i dont think im that bad in my secondary school cca, even as a member.

well, the thing i cant stand is your demeaning tone (or at least i thought so)
it undermines my efforts to balance my academics, what i love to do and what i have been doing all along.
just because you are busy with your own work doesnt mean others are not if they choose not to show it
but since im a judgemental person myself, i dont simply get pissed off just because someone forms a judgement of me.
thats why i kept silent.